WELCOME TO MY HOME

i’ve nothing of import to share. tho, James The Gent came to the US for a visit and stayed with us for a couple of days! it was great fun and it was so cool to get to know him! A dashing, charming, genuine, funny and all-together way-cool dude — we hope that James will return sooner vs. later (and stay for a longer time!) …but, thought i would share a view of me and B’s home in current state as of August 2009 in The Richmond District of San Francisco!

matty stanfield in patti smith t given by james the gent! my hair is far too short

matty stanfield in patti smith t given by james the gent! my hair is far too short

anyway, welcome to our home…

doll representations of our family as collected by B: B, me, Little Bagel & Lola

doll representations of our family as collected by B: B, me, Little Bagel & Lola

and what one sees as one enters our home…walking into living room 8.09

can you see my green chair at the window?

can you see my green chair at the window?

dining area where we seldom dine.

dining area where we seldom dine.

B's Infamous Red Wall of 'art'

B's Infamous Red Wall of 'art'

watch you're step, you're about to enter the kitchen. sorry that my pix is askew

watch you're step, you're about to enter the kitchen. sorry that my pix is askew

…now, my picture is sideways, but apply some orientation imagination and you get the idea. The bathroom is to the left. I really don’t want to take you into the can, but I will show you my classy bathroom wall! …or, a portion of it. But, first the kitchen sink and my beloved Hello Kitty toaster given by my long lost pal, Milly.
now, the babs up the sandbox poster is worth a bit of money...

now, the babs up the sandbox poster is worth a bit of money...

these folks watch and quietly judge me as i do the dishes at the sink...

these folks watch and quietly judge me as i do the dishes at the sink...

it burns that image on to the toast! ...too bad i don't like bread.

it burns that image on to the toast! ...too bad i don't like bread.

fridge magnets. ...I know. I so suck at formatting pix to my blog. It's hard!

fridge magnets. ...I know. I so suck at formatting pix to my blog. It's hard!

…changed my mind. we’re not going into the john. No. Bedroom?

this is where B works which is challenging as he has to lie down in the chair...

this is where B works which is challenging as he has to lie down in the chair...

…now, the bedroom is directly to the left of his desk, but last night was one of those fun-tumble-strappy-pleasure sort of evenings. and, sadly, that sort of evening does not make for an appropriate photograph the next morning. So, no. we shall not venture into the bedroom. sorry.

here are some random, up close and personal shots of things in the apartment…

special treasures living room shelf...

special treasures living room shelf...

above the plasma screen...

above the plasma screen...

lovely lola sitting pretty as Goldfrapp plays on...

lovely lola sitting pretty as Goldfrapp plays on...

sonny & cher framed by B - they are original but some little girl snap'd off cher's hair and lost their shoes. sadness.

sonny & cher framed by B - they are original but some little girl snap'd off cher's hair and lost their shoes. sadness.

close up RED WALL portion 8.09

please note the lovely tea set given by my dear friend, Dessie. cheerish it as well as he.

please note the lovely tea set given by my dear friend, Dessie. cheerish it as well as he.

that is an old photo of me with my Grandmother -- the back is dated 9.67

that is an old photo of me with my Grandmother -- the back is dated 9.67

my tiny WWII doll sitting by some of my photography art books...

my tiny WWII doll sitting by some of my photography art books...

another book shelf 8.09

there is a great story behind the autographed barbra superman butt vinyl, but am far too lazy to go into now.

there is a great story behind the autographed barbra superman butt vinyl, but am far too lazy to go into now.


magikal banana...

magikal banana...


my french vase purchased when i was making good money and cool doll given me by B

my french vase purchased when i was making good money and cool doll given me by B


oh, well.

oh, well.

…I went ahead and brought you to our bathroom. this is the wall of ‘classy’ art i have created. …if one is flexible you can spin babs while you take a leak. takes skill.

Well, that is a glimpse into my home. Thanks for visiting! …please. do not disturb the gimp in the corner. thank you.

love and kisses,
matty

August 24, 2009. Uncategorized. 11 comments.

I GAVE MY 9 YEAR OLD HEART TO SCOTTY BALDWIN

…and I was never the same.

He was so cute!

He was so cute!

My Grandmother loved her “stories” — she would get upset if one called them soap operas. I didn’t care for them. Tho, I do remember finding DARK SHADOWS sort of interesting.

Anyway, I had stayed home from school one day. I think this would have to have been around 1976 or 1977 — not really sure. But, I was lying on her living room floor. She was sitting in her chair with an apple and an iced tea — and General Hospital started. I think I might have groaned.

…but, then, this pretty blond girl who was supposed to be in high school but was probably 30 — sneaked into some garage apartment and began to make out with this incredibly cute guy! I knew him as Scotty Baldwin and I secretly gave my 9 or 10 year old heart over to him.

Several years later — long after I had forgotten about Scotty I remember hearing people talk about how Laura left Scotty for this Luke guy who had raped her.

Like, ewwwwww!!!!

Like, ewwwwww!!!!

Never mind that the dude apparently raped Laura, but she fell in love with him over Scotty!?!??

Awwwww! Scotty with that silly Laura person

Awwwww! Scotty with that silly Laura person

Now, why? Why-o-why would Laura drop Scotty over Luke. …who raped her. Why?  …all I can figure is she had a thing for forceful perms. …OR, maybe Luke had some sort of gift that Scotty was lacking?

…something was fishy in Port Charles. Yes, I can still remember the name of the city in which Scotty had a tiny garage apartment.

I think Elizabeth Taylor appeared on this “storie” when Laura married Scotty — after stupidly divorcing the ever so cute Scotty Baldwin. My Grandmother was quite excited that Liz Taylor was on her fave story. By that time I was in high school, on drugs and worried about much more pressing mattters. …Like gathering friends to kidnap Chuck E Cheese with water pistols.

…You know, the dude who dressed up as Chuck E Cheese is STILL mad at me for doing that. I thought it was funny and helped to gain him some popularity. …but 24 years later, that guy is STILL sore at me. I never meant to upset him. However, now, as an adult when I mention this people look at me as if I am either totally insane or an asshole.

this is not the Chuck E Cheese we kidnapped in 1985

this is not the Chuck E Cheese we kidnapped in 1985

I’m neither. I was just an odd teenager. …but, we did have fun kidnapping Chuck E Cheese. …The manager of the restaurant let us. I think he had a thing for one of my female pals, I’ll call her “Sally F”, …who assisted with the ever-important kidnapping.

I’m sorry to the dude who is still mad at me. I’ve told him I’m sorry. But, I don’t think he will ever be able to let it go. We got him a drink and some doobage.

At any rate, I blame it all on Scotty Baldwin. I take my 9 or 10 year old heart back!

Anyway, my heart belongs to B. …And, he is FAR cuter than Scotty ever was. And, I am quite sure — a much better lover!

oh, an added note: I really thought I was doing a nice thing for the dude who used to dress as Chuck E Cheese! …I did! With the gift of sight that has been sufficiently hinded, I realize I was misguided in that stoned sort of way.

And, in the event, that this dude should read this — I would like to add that he declined the weed and the drink. He just wanted to be taken back to Chuck E  — and we only brought him for a ride in the parking lot anyway. So, no real harm done. And, the families and fellow employees all seemed to get a kick out of it. …I’m sorry.

Also, my female pal did not return the crush of the Chuck E Cheese manager — and, just for the record, in the event that she is reading this. And, she never touched any weed or drink. The other two pals did. …they were bad girls. but only in the best and coolest way possible!

August 10, 2009. Tags: , , , , , , , , . Uncategorized. 9 comments.

BACK FROM TORONTO!

...John Legend continues to evolve. I just take a while to catch up.

...John Legend continues to evolve. I just take a while to catch up.

…I seem to be listening to this album quite a bit for the last several days. I didn’t like it when I first heard it, but now I’m ever so loving it. Go figure.

We are back from Toronto. Sad trip. But, those times when families come together after the loss of parent are so bittersweet, complicated, difficult and full of love — that you know it was so very important to everyone. And, to the memory of the one who is no longer here. B is holding up well. Always so hard to watch the one you love the most hurting. …And, all you can do is offer your love.

And, there were the children. B’s niece and nephew are perfect children! They were like little rays of sun racing around us. And, B is blessed with a great family. This was really the first time I had to actually spend some time with his mother — an incredibly beautiful, funny and unique person. …She would have to be — and B’s father must have been a true force of nature. How else could one explain such astounding sons produced from their love and marriage?!!?

I missed our Little Bagel and Lola something awful. Also been missing Bethie and Alan. Hope to see them later this weekend or maybe even sooner. And, while I had a few setbacks while in Canada — I did OK. The return to therapy is this Friday.

The trip to/from Toronto was quite difficult. Because we were having to grab our tix quick — we ended up with some odd flight schedules from Hell. The trip there ended up taking just over 13 hours. Sucked. The trip back wasn’t so bad. But, our luggage was lost both ways.

I was unable to sleep much. I did most of the laundry. And, I watched the first half of this:

Psychoville! Dawn French slips back to the edge of things!

Psychoville! Dawn French slips back to the edge of things!

I had been dying to see it since I heard of it airing in the UK earlier this year! As one would expect from the folks who brought us The League of Gentlemen — it was sick, twisted, funny and horribly wrong. I am loving it. Interesting to see Dawn French doing something with a bit of edge again. How many years has it been since French & Saunders were actually pushing envelopes? 18 or so? Anyway, well worth a look — I think it is one of those shows that can seem a bit much, jolty and extreme first viewing but takes on more comic meaning after getting past the shock tactics. Not up to par with the original League, but most definitely excellent! Fingers crossed for some more to come!

Seems there were so many things I wanted to write about a bit of the Hell I went through trying to grapple with all this flashback shit while we were traveling and in Canada. But, this posting is more than boring enough.

I wonder, why do I find Hugh Grant so charming and hot? He isn’t really.

hgShrugging of my shoulders.

August 5, 2009. Uncategorized. 6 comments.