Well, the interviewing is going very well! Fingers crossed! I feel a bit bleary-eye’d from being at the laptop too much.

I can’t help but wonder where and in one job I will end up.

My goal is to find a position which will allow me to be a part of something that does or provides something good for the world. You know, not just to be a part of a money making engine. I no longer want to be another brick in the wall that keeps people out (and in) —

Thus far, I am headed in that direction. I have an interview next week about which I am really excited! It is not something I can write about, but I think it would be right down my alley! And, I mean that in a G-rated way. Minds out of the gutter, people!

…sometimes I worry that I think so much about the future and I forget to fully enjoy the present. I guess this is a rather pedestrian thought or fear. But, Dessie sent me a cool email today showing what can be done with just a single sheet of paper. It was amazing. The best I can do with a sheet of plain paper is to make a poorly constructed plane.

Actually, that is not really true. I can also make one of those tiny footballs. Like the one Emillio made and used in THE BREAKFAST CLUB! Remember when he made that little football and then did the sound of the roaring crowd as the other Brat Packers watched on in confusion. …And, of course this reminds me to confess that I harbor a deep crush on Judd Nelson. Not so much from this era when he really just annoyed me. But, more from that “Suddenly Susan” to current era. He has aged oddly and is really quite sexy. Ah, yes. Well, of all the celebrities I pick modern era Judd Nelson with which to be infatuated. No wonder I worry about my future. Still. It is the truth. He is hot. And, it is only a fantasy.

I think I need to get some fresh air.

Oh, and my Blythe doll (see way above) is looking at me far too much. And, I am farily certain she is judging me. Silently. …In that passive-aggressive Blythe kind of way. But, I love my Blythe doll. But, if she isn’t careful — I just might turn her eyes to red. That would serve her right!


January 18, 2007. Uncategorized.


  1. tim replied:

    Judd Nelson? No, seriously? Wow.

  2. Kalvin replied:

    I love those dolls. And I’m glad to hear that it sounds like you’ve found something that will be “up your alley”. I guess we know where your mind is if you think that’s where ours is…

  3. Minge replied:

    Get out your felt tipped pen!

  4. matty03 replied:

    Tim — Oh, come on! We all know your harbor a deep erotic investment in Judd Nelson’s methy-messed-up-hair-bad-boy-approaching-50-look! Oh, wait. That would be me. Sorry! But, yes. I lust Judd Nelson. Can’t be helped. I also have celeb crushes on Mickey Rourke, Tadanobu Asano and Hugh Grant post 1997. Oh, and Peter Brady is really hot! When I watch The Brady Bunch I am transported back to being 8 years old so it isn’t transgressive or wrong or anything. And, he is still pretty hot!

    Kalvin – yes, sadly my mind is always not too far from the gutter. But, it does keep life interesting!!!! And, I LOVE the Blythe doll! I was not allowed one as a child so I ordered one of those big ones from Japan when I was in corporate hell and making lots of money! I treasure her! ….but, she can be a real bitch. Just sitting there. Judging me.

    Minge — My felt tipped pen is out and I’m ready to roll!!!!

  5. Kevin replied:

    That’s funny, I always had a crush on Judd Fry. But you know, poor Judd is dead, poor Judd Fry is dead, so I’m guessing it won’t work out.

    And don’t get me started on Ashley, Naomi or Wynonna.

  6. matty03 replied:

    Kevin — You know I can relate. I am still in love with Andy Gibb. Oddly, I think I have a better shot at it since he is dead. …but I think that is an avenue best avoided.

    The one that is the mom kind of scare me. I get their names mixed up. But, Moma Judd is most worrying for me.

  7. hot lunch replied:

    i’d love to be right down your alley!

    i haven’t told many people this but i too have an interview coming up! best of luck to you! *fingers crossed and sending good vibes*

    I have never heard of a Blythe doll till today. Thank You for constantly educating me.

  8. ginab replied:

    Blythe doll eyes? I thought Matty them were your eyes from you at the computer as long as you are. Hey, what do I know but to look into those eyes even those eyes averted would trance me good.

    I ate four damn cookies today. And blech I’m under the weather. I just am. It’s how I is today (and even that accent has clomped onto me but feirce!).

    Lady luck is on the lookout on the job front in your search for greater meaning.


  9. matty03 replied:

    Hot Lunch! Such a saucy thing! I am blushing! …and, am quite flattered! …unless it was meant to be ironic. In this case I might cry.

    OHHHH! Sending you lots and lots of positive-get-that-job-energy to you! I’m excited for you! A smart hot looking guy such as yourself — you will get the job! I just know it!

    Oh, you probably need a Blythe doll!

    I suspect you’re far too young to have a memory of them — but they used to be rather small and the cool thing about them was that you could pull a string (discreetly hidden in the back) and change the color of their eyes. And, this was the 70’s so they had those big sad eyes like all the 70’s kitsch art of children!

    Anyway, I was not allowed to have one. Then, they started making collectible versions out of Japan — and these Blythe dolls are almost a full 12 inches tall! Amazing stuff! But, they are not cheap. Still, I’m glad I bought mine! When I left boston I let the Mapplethorpe go but held on to my Blythe. …even if she does silently judge me.

    …a NYC artist did a whole collection of photographs of her “original and vintage” Blythe dolls posed in exotic places! That collection has been available in book form for sometime and also postcards!

    Gotta love and get some Blythe Magic!

  10. matty03 replied:

    Gina! I’m sorry you’re not feeling well! May the glassy gaze of Blythe bring you comfort. Tho, I seldom turn to my Blythe doll for comfort. She seems to worry some visitors. Go figure. She’s just a doll with a 70’s lost look about her.

    And, I sure hope Lady Luck is on my side!

    I think she is — I consider myself to be a lucky person!

  11. hot lunch replied:

    smart and hot looking!? oh my! *blush blush, leak leak*

    well, i’ve been checking out eBay and my those Blythe dolls fetch a pretty dime! i love going to garage sales and thrift stores, so this is just another thing for me to keep my eyes out for when i’m out hunting! i’ll be sure to send it to you if i actually find one! i take it that in order to determine if they are originals is by looking for the hidden cord that changes their eye color? Are there any particular ones you are looking for? i.e. the red head? the brunnette?

    very fascinating! it’s so cute u wanted these! i’m more of an 80s child myself though i appreciate the 70s. when i grew up, i wanted My Little Pony, Rainbow Brite, and the entire Jem and the Holograms collection. truly outrageous! Of course, i always wanted a Barbie too, but I never got those either. The closest thing I ever got was this little plush seal, and I tied a handkerchief to its tail and I would throw it around the room and name it Comet. I would tie knots in the handkerchief as my way of “braiding” its “hair.”

    Nothing beats my Blonde Ambition pajama pants ponytail on myself though.

  12. matty03 replied:

    Hot Lunch — You are so sweet! No! I don’t need a Blythe doll!!! I’m all set with my Giant Blythe Doll from Japan! …and, she too, has the magical cord that changes her eyes! They did a great job recreating the original doll only magnified to dizzy-ing heights! I think you can still find her via Kid Robot or on line with them. But, when she was new back in 2001 she went for $80. So, I’m not sure what she must cost now.

    Anyway, you know you’re holding an original Blythe doll becasue she is tiny!!! I doubt you will ever find one at a garage sale but one never knows! The originals are worth quite a bit these days.

    I, too, wanted a Barbie. The closest I came was a Winnie The Pooh stuffed animal which my father took away and tossed when I was 4 because he thought it was too “faggy” …the evil bastard!

    Wear those PJ’s with pride, dear Hot Lunch!

  13. Daniel replied:

    Judd Nelson looks sweet. And you know I can’t resist sweet. I don’t even really try anymore. I just give in immediately and make a huge fool of myself.
    And I’d love to make Enrique scream and swoon.
    Knock ’em dead at your interview, tiger!

  14. matty03 replied:

    Daniel — I suspect Judd is not so sweet. …more sour! LOL! Thank you!!! I intend to do just that! I NEED A JOB fast!!!

  15. Old Cheeser replied:

    What strange and disturbing nostrils Judd Nelson has.

  16. matty03 replied:

    Old Cheeser, yes — but the better to sniff things with I always say! …but that’s just me.

  17. ing replied:

    You blog too fast!

    And why is sniffing with huge nostrils sexy? Is this yet another gay thing I’m too naive to understand? Like those bathhouses?

  18. matty03 replied:

    Ing! What is a bathhouse? I’m an innocent! I know not of such dirty things! OK, I know them personally but let’s not get into that!

    I can’t explain my attraction to the late 90’s and current Judd Nelson. I just find him hot. Go figure. I didn’t find him attractive when he was an in-demand Brat Packer.

    You’re not really naive. Anyone who can work those heels so well as you can’t be too naive! I’ve got your number! (lol!)

  19. Dessie replied:

    That means that technically, by degrees, I changed the world today. That *has* to be worth some employment karma for us both.


  20. Topher replied:

    Good luck with the interviews.. Break ’em off, show ’em what you got.

  21. matty03 replied:

    Dessie! What did you do today!?!?!? I need to get myself to your blog to see if I can find out! And, thank you! Need all the postive karma I can get, baby!

    Kris! That is my plan!

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