Well, I feel as if I’ve applied to every possible employer in the San Francisco area. I’ve even applied to peddlers of porn. I have no shame. Just give me a paycheck and benefits. LOL!

Actually, I think I should apply to Borders to see if I can secure some evening work there.

I am determined to stay positive and focused, but you know — this is scary and what money I have seems to be flying out and nothing is coming in!

On a very positive note — I have met a great guy. We hung out for the second time last night and it was so nice. I do not want to jinx things so I will write no more. However, I have to say it is nice to have such a strong ray of hope shine thru at a time when I find it quite challenging to hold on to hope and positive thoughts!

Now, kids, don’t worry! I am not throwing in the towel or anything — and I do know it will all work out. Right now, the challenge seems to be getting past next week and all the vacations as no one seems to be available to interview at the moment. However, sometimes I just need to whine a bit. This is a blog — so levels of self-indulgence are perfectly acceptable!

And, now I am off to the acupunture treatment which I really should not be spending the money on, but I think it is really helping me so I am sticking with it. Then, check for my mail and hope that there might be something there other than bills. And, then on to the grocery store for microwave dinners and Diet Coke!!!

Alan is seeing Erasure tonight! I am all excited for him!

May 24, 2005. Uncategorized.


  1. Miss Marisol replied:

    You can’t leave us hanging about the great guy. There are so few in the world…

  2. snarl71 replied:

    YAY, Matt! A new special fellow. So mysterious. Can’t wait until the jinx is over and you can spill the beans (and include pictures).

    As for the job…it’s all about time. This week and next week won’t be the best because of holiday kicking off the summer season. But it’ll come.

    As for the porn peddling…there’s money to be made in sex! Go for it (and let me use the discount!)

  3. Doug replied:

    A new man 🙂 WOOHOO!!! Same thing going on here Matt…its a nice feeling isnt it?

    I agree with Karl…porn peddling is a good thing but to hell with the discount, I want free samples 🙂

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  5. matty replied:

    To the unidentified commenter: Uh, yeah —- thanks for that bit of advice. 98% of my time is being spent in pursuit of a job, but that is great advice. And, so very inspiring. …asshole. LOL! Whoever you are, maybe you can hire me?

    Miss Marisol — I would love to give more info about this great guy, but I am so very hesitant as I’ve become quite weary of jinxing myself! LOL! I promise I shall more soon! And, with a picture!

    Karl & Doug — any access to porn that should come my way will be shared! LOL!

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  8. laurenbove replied:

    Don’t jinx yourself, darling Matt…as snarl71 so aptly put! Free Samples Abound! You go boy and have fun with the job. Life’s too fucking short. And fuck anonymous. I hate anonymous. He/she always posts the most inane dribble.

    Matt: It’s your life. Nobody’s paying your bills. Anonymous sure isn’t! Live it to the fullest. Please YOU.

  9. matty replied:

    Laurenbove — Thank you so much! I needed that — especially today!

  10. laurenbove replied:

    No Problem Matt. Hope all is going well. One things for sure when things aren’t going well…nothing stays the same except the fact that nothing stays the same.

    Not having religious beliefs, this fact always comforts me for some reason.

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