Lazy Sunday with David Lynch, The Matrix and Thoughts of Ute

So much rain today. We both felt lazy. After a most unhealthy breakfast, Karl and I went to the grocery store. He decided he did not want to join me for a movie and I decided that I really didn’t want to go alone. So we ended up staying in the house and watching my way cool DVD of Twin Peaks. I think Karl even kind of liked it — tho, one can’t be sure.

We then watched The Matrix as I hadn’t seen it in a year or two and wanted to “prep” for the sequel coming out later in the year. I was also a bit inspired by the little Ani-Matrix short that was shown with that silly new horror movie, Dreamcatcher. Karl was most likely the last person on the planet to have not seen The Matrix. He hated it and seemed to almost have a violent hatred for the film and has vowed that he will not see the sequel. Tho, he did admit that Mr.Reeves is hot. I find Morpheus, or Larry Fishburne must hotter.

Am getting excited about the tickets Karl scored for us to see Ute Lemper next month! I need to pick up her new CD! I believe that Laurie Anderson collaborated with her on it. I’ve loved Ute Lemper since I first heard her sing on PBS back in the late ’80’s. She is fantastic and I’ve read she is quite a performer. We just missed catching her in her Broadway run of Chicago several years ago. I do not think she performs much in the US.

Is anyone out there familiar with an artist by the name of Patricia Kaas? I’ve recently discovered her stuff and like what I’ve heard quite a bit. I guess she did a film with Jeremy Irons that will be released in the US this summer. She has a great voice. Too bad I don’t understand a word of French. Someday, I really need to learn that language and get my ass to Paris — and London, of course! I think those are two of the places I would most like to see/visit!

Back to work for tomorrow. Am looking forward to it — tho, not to sorting through all of the backlog that is probably awaiting me. I also have to finalize several more key medical appointments later this week. The fun just never stops!

OH! Baby Update! My pal, Ellen, should be gearing up any hour now to head to the hospital to have the baby! We are all excited. Am sure she and Chuck are way-more excited and anxious — but just thought I would mention it!

March 30, 2003. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.


A Forgotten Purchase and Too Much Joy Division…

I have a tendency to impulse purchase. Luckily, I do not impulse purchase big things. Instead, I tend to gravitate toward compact discs, DVD’s and books. Still, these things add up quickly. Just ask Karl about our ever-expanding DVD/CD collection. Sometimes I will buy something and just forget about it.

I used to love David Lynch’s TV show, Twin Peaks. I gave up on it, tho after the first season. I mean, it was pissing me off that he wasn’t identifying Laura Palmer’s killer after a full season. However, I got all excited when the first season was released on a DVD set last year. I was crushed to discover that ‘they’ decided to leave out the original 2 hour pilot episode which set the whole series up. Several weeks ago I came across a used DVD in a box covered with Japanese lettering that claimed to be the original pilot episode of Twin Peaks. It was not clear if it would play on US DVD players, but at only $15, I decided to take a chance. I forgot all about it until a few minutes ago. I plugged it in and it plays wonderfully with great quality!!! As it is now almost 1:30 AM, I’ve decided to watch it later. Besides, Karl is fast asleep and I do not think he ever experienced Twin Peaks — so I want to share it with him! Cool!

Oh, and I played my Joy Division CD in the car today. I played it a lot. Too much, in fact. I was getting bummed. So, I tried playing Olivia Newton John, but somehow listening to “Physical” seemed so very wrong after having sung along with “Love Will Tear Us Apart” — I was so caught-up in the goth-synth-memory of it all. When I got home, I quickly replaced the Joy Division CD in my CD carrying case with my New Order CD. I figure that this is a good compromise as New Order is really Joy Division with a sunnier attiitude! …sort of. …in a way.

March 29, 2003. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.


Matt Goes to the Movies and Returns to Work Next Week!

Aside from having a lovely brunch with Petie and Duncan and an equally lovely dinner with Christopher and Robert — I’ve also managed to see 2 new movies this weekend. Thought I would offer my views on both of these art house films.

I have been waiting for quite a while to see SPUN This film offers us a few days in the life of several speed freaks. Now, if you’re planning on seeing it you may want to skip my comments because there may be a few spoliers. From an art perspective, Spun is done quite well. The director, Jonas Akerlund, has a very distinct and interesting style — both of which are used at maximum volume for the duration of the film. There is also nothing pedictable or even remotely-mainstream about this movie. However, when you consider that this is the mastermind behind such cutting-edge videos as The Prodigy’s “Smack My Bitch Up” and Aphex Twin’s “Come to Daddy” — you would not expect the average drug addict movie anyway.

The casting is certainly of interest. Tho, I do wonder how Mena Suvari’s agent pitched this film to her. I can just imagine some suit saying something like, “Mena! This is your chance to really break out of that cheerleader image and show the world that you can play a spun-out speed junkie with bad teeth! You have to do this movie!” …he probably failed to tell her that she would be filmed from the vantage point of a toilet taking a dump. I don’t know, maybe that is every young performer’s dream. …it certainly was not my dream to see it.

I already knew that Ms. Suvari, Brittany Murphy, John Leguizamo and Jason Schwartzman could act. However, I did not know they could look dirtier than Mickey Rourke — but they all can and do! I swear, I think the screen was projecting a foul stench throughout the screening. I mean, Mickey looked down right clean in comparison to the other thespians. I should note that Debbie Harry fared well as a butch lesbian and she got to kick some major homophobic butt in one of the flick’s better scenes! Eric Roberts wore the gayest wig in the history of gay wigdom and after over a decade’s worth of Wigstocks — i think this says a lot!

As creative as the production for SPUN is, I think we all need to pause and pose that eternal question — when does art become porn? I suspect this film crosses that line. Even Ron Jeremy and several strippers featured looked embarassed…I wonder how much Leguizamo got paid to do that scene with the sock? …not enough I should think! Anyway, all-in-all I didn’t really care for this movie all that much and I have to say that the numerous warnings that the Kendall Square Cinema had posted lived up to their warnings. The shock factor was high for this one! The editing and look of the film was still quite interesting.

I also saw Laurel Canyon for which most reviews have been bad. I LOVED this movie. In fact, I think it is the best I’ve seen for 2003. Of course I am a sucker for movies that explore bad parent/child relationships and Frances McDormand who can do no wrong as an actress if you ask me! Christian Bale ain’t bad eye candy, either! Anyway, I do rec. this one! It was close to being sold out and the audience seemed to really be into it. Unlike the audience for SPUN which seemed either frightened or way too into being spun’d themselves to care. It also carried that cool ’70’s ambivalent vibe we seldom see now. Film makers seem so eager to explain everything — I like an open story with all sorts of possibilities. ….like life.

Tomorrow, Karl and I plan to see Nowhere in Africa which looks really good. I am also quite eager to see the new Holly Hunter film, Levity. Holly Hunter rules.

I am allowed to return to work on Monday and am seeing a doctor Monday night to check my meds. Am feeling really rested and am looking forward to getting back to work. Mainly, I miss my boss. I dread the thought of trying to catch up, tho! Wouldn’t it be cool if one could just toss out all the work that has been put to the side while one is out and just focus on new/incoming work!?!?! Oh well.

Looks like I am scheduled for another round of appointments in early April and surgery in May for my nose to correct septum and bleeding issue. That will mean a short term disability from work of 10 days. ugh. Oh well, no more gum grafting for awhile anyway! That is saying something! I just hope my teeth don’t fall out by the fall! ha!

March 29, 2003. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.


Decorative Track Lighting Options and Eric Carmen

So, the new cool thing is to have these bauble-like lights hanging from twisted steel cords from the track. These little designer fixtures are quite expensive. While I do like them, I worry that if we were to invest and replace our current dull ones we might end up regretting in a few years. I mean, could these decorative bulbs go the way of all those 80’s Nagel prints?

What ever happened to Eric Carmen? I wonder if he is still all by himself soaking up the royalties earned from Celine Dion’s cover of his sad, sad song. I wonder if Eric has track lighting. If he does, I doubt he has invested in those cool bauble bulbs. However, if Richard Marx has track lighting, I would be willing to bet money that he has ’em! I bet we could even find some Patrick Nagel prints in Richard’s closet!

March 27, 2003. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.


…because you need to —-

OK, so I am sure many will not venture out to see Crispin Glover in “Willard”, but you owe it to yourself to visit the official Willard web site and watch the video of Mr. Glover sing that old Michael Jackson chestnut, “Ben”. Trust me. You really need to watch THIS. I doubt that we’ll be seeing it on MTV or VH1 anytime soon. This will probably be your only chance.

…and you may find yourself asking, “Yes, but is it art?” I am unable to answer this question, but somewhere — David Lynch must be very proud of Crispin.

March 26, 2003. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.


Faster, Pussycat! Kill! Kill!

You know, if you search around the net long enough and you find the koolest things — like the official website for Tura Satana! Way Cool! Looks like she is still working on it, but you gotta give the woman credit for being so detailed in her bio! Sadly, no news on a DVD release of Russ Meyer’s classic film in which Ms. Satana kicked some major ass! This is one of those films which is so very bad it comes all the way around to good again! I think it is still available on video, but who watches video anymore? Ugh! Anyway, I think it is neat that she has created her own site!

Ok, I am getting bored with this doctor-mandated week at home. The increase in the meds do make me a little sleepy, but it is really no big deal. The Nortriptyline increase really is helping me sleep at night. I’ve actually been waking up feeling refreshed! This is great considering how poorly I had been sleeping. Also, I seem to be thinking clearly. For the last couple of weeks it seemed that all of my thoughts were getting jumbled up and I felt like an absent minded prof! The only downside I’ve experienced is that I think the Nortriptyline gives me a slight headache. I can deal with that to avoid what I had been going through this past couple of weeks!

I would very much like to go back to work tomorrow and get caught-up. However, I guess I should follow the doctors’ advise. I was instructed to not think of work for the remainder of the week. Ugh! I was told that after the first 2 days of med adjustment I could venture out for walks/swims and even a movie. We will see. I want to be sure am alert enough to drive without risk to anyone or myself. I think I am, tho. I didn’t sleep all that much today. Woke up at 7:40AM and took a nap around 1:00PM for an hour or so.

Mostly, I’ve just been bored. Walked to local video store and purchased some DVD’s. Picked up Femme Fatale which I really loved in the theatre! DePalma back in his best place — the psycho-sexual mind-f**k! Also got the British film, 24 Hour Party People. I certainly love all the music from that era so it looks like something I would like. Missed it when it came out in the theatres here. I think it chronicles the very beginnings of bands like New Order, Joy Division — and, The Sex Pistols, of course!

I really miss Kate Bush. I’ve been reading about her “next album” for well over a year. Last year, Q magazine interviewed her and I got my hopes up, but it doesn’t look like it will be headed our way any time soon. I guess she really is suspended in gafa now.

Oh! This is a great group. Their new CD totally rules and I highly rec. it! World music with a twist of funk.

March 26, 2003. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.


Melon Dezign is some sort of design company based out of Paris. The site is pointless, but I am drawn to it at any rate. It is oddly hypnotic. In particular, I enjoy playing the toe piano contained in one of their little musical graphics.

March 26, 2003. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.


Willy Wonka —- Oh, Yeah!

In my most recent post I listed some celebs for whom I’ve always held crushes. I later realized that I left off one of the most significant — Gene Wilder as Willy Wonka! Most hot! Is it his big red top hat? His curly locks? His manic stare? The big olive-colored bow ties? The purple jacket? Who knows! But in Willy Wonka, Mr. Wilder def. had it goin’ on!

You know, as much as I love the film Willy Wonka & the Chocolate Factory, As that link confirms, I have to say that the movie is rather disturbing and should not be viewed by children. At times creepy, hidden pro-drug messages and an uncomfortable sexual undertone throughout — I just love it! In addition, I feel a strong connection to the character of Veruca Salt. Yes, I fear that I am too, a bad egg just waiting to be discarded down the chute to oblivion — but my shoes always rock!

I am a bit out of it today. I’ve been having some pretty intense panic attacks — associated with my many doctor visits and this diagnosis for the genetic disorder. Anyway, I was having trouble thinking/functioning and had not had a decent night of sleep in several days. My shrink increased my meds and I was instructed to take the next 4 days to rest and adjust to the medication. I’ve basically been asleep since 10:30 PM last night. Thought I would just go on-line for a few minutes before I take the next dose and doze again. Have to admit, I have not felt this well in some time. I think I desperately needed the sleep.

Speaking of rest — I really love Roberta Flack. Her song stylings are so unique. It always sounds as if she is just sort of singing to herself and making the song up as she goes. I mean this in a good way, but I find her style quite interesting. …and soothing. I fear that she is, indeed, killing me softly with her song.

Sure wish I was friends with Miss Kittin. I think she would be most interesting to hang with and share a glass of champaign. She released a new remix CD last week. I purchased it, but have yet to play it. I am sure it is awesome, though. As I am not to leave the house while my meds adjust, Karl is to pick up the new Celine Dion CD for me. I think he is embarrassed about having to make this purchase. I just don’t know why. I feel that if Celine plays her cards right she could take over the throne of Barbra. However, I fear that this 5 year Vegas gig may be a real career killer.

My copy of the DVD for Sordid Lives came in the other day. Perhaps if I am not too sleepy, I will plug it and watch it. This is an amazingly wondderful film! I highly rec.it! We saw it last summer in P’Town. I guess there is some movie theatre in Nebraska which has been showing it for well over a year. Hmmmm…

Hope the above ramblings make some form of sense.

March 25, 2003. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.


Hangin’-Out in Brookline and Odd Sexual Attractions…

After a lazy morning, I decided to take a drive to Brookline and catch the “new” David Cronenberg film, Spider Very grim and twisted, but I rather liked it. I guess it was released last year, but is only now making it to the US. I had forgotten how talented Miranda Richardson is as an actress. She was in The Hours, but they didn’t give her very much to do in that one. She is awesome in this movie!

OK, so Ralphie Fiennes stars in Spider. He mumbles the whole time so I couldn’t understand anything he said, but it didn’t matter to me because I think he is hot. In fact, I thought he was hot in this movie. I mentioned this to the lady sitting next to me (she knew me from 10 years ago — I still can’t think of her name or why she knew me, but that is a whole other blog!) Anyway, this woman who did apparently know me commented that my taste in men was always a bit off. True, Ralph was in homeless gear and drooling through most of his scenes. On my way home I was thinking about it. Maybe I am a bit off, but Mr. Fiennes rocks my world. I actually think Karl looks a bit like him! Cool! Note: Karl dresses quite well and does not ever drool or mumble. If you don’t believe me, check him out! Karl is most hot! He is really the one who rocks my world.

Anyway, here is a quick list of other celebs for whom I have had crushes. Please note that these crushes may be limited to a certain time or certain movie role.

Ralph Fiennes (anytime, anywhere)
Alice Cooper (circa 1975 in his full scary make-up)
Tom Petty (pref. circa late 70’s/early 80’s)
Rif Raff from the film version of Rocky Horror (something about that hump!)
Roger Daltrey (circa 1975)
Paul Rudd (anytime, anywhere)
That dude who played the father on the original “Family Affair” tv show. Uncle Bill was hot!
Little Ricky’s dad from “Silver Spoons”
Wilem DaFoe as Jesus
The guy who took over for drumming responsibilities for the Who after Keith Moon died. What was his name?
Dee Dee Ramone

Now, I ask — are my tastes really so odd? I think not!

I guess it has been close to a year since I last visited Brookline. I really enjoyed just walking around and looking in the shops. I purchased a new book. It is called Kick Me and looks to be quite funny.

I guess I will be finding out more about my MRI-MRA and other fun things this week. I am going to make Karl go with me when I meet with the specialist because I tend to get a bit freaked-out and then forget everything they’ve told me by the time I leave. My hope is that his schedule will allow him to join me at these appointments. Am trying not to worry about it. Just going with the flow.

March 23, 2003. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.


Brain Matters

Well, after several months of minor, but quite annoying health issues I was diagnosed with HHT — also known as Hereditary Hemorrhagic Telangiectasia. It is a genetic disorder (given to me by way of my Dad’s gene pool) of the blood vessels which affects about one in 10,000 people. The tendency is for the body to form blood vessels that lack the capillaries between an artery and vein. This means that arterial blood under high pressure flows directly into a vein without having to squeeze the very small capillaries. This place where an artery is connected directly to the a vein, tends to be a fragile site that can rupture and results in quite a bit of bleeding. These abnormal blood vessels are called telangiectasis, if it involves small blood vessels. If it involves larger blood vessels it is called an AVM — which could be thought of as a big telangiectasis. I have one way up inside my right nostril. Lovely. This will have to zapped off with laser surgery in order to correct. Back in ’95 an AVM was discovered in one of my lungs and had to be corrected with surgery, but I was not diagnosed with HHT then and I haven’t thought much of it sesne.

However, before this will be corrected we have to address my brain. A catscan revealed what was, at first, thought to have been a stroke. yikes. Then it was suspected that I might have one or tow AVM’s in my brian. YIKES! So, after much anxiety, I had an MRI-MRA performed yesterday. I received some good news today with the results — no AVM’s in my brain!!!! But there are 2 contusions. ? I will be seeing a neurologists next week to discuss those and why I have them.

Having HHT means that an individual will need to have his/her body “screened” ever 2 to 3 years. Screening invloves MRI’s, blood tests and those fun things known as colonoscopies! FUN! not. Anyway, as long as I stay on top of things all should be ok.

Anyway, looks like my brain is ok with some concern. Now it is on to the cardiovascular and blood levels — then focus on the nose. Until am done with the screening I am to delay all dental procedures. So I view this as a break from gum grafting and yet another excuse to not bother with bar bells and stair masters! So, am feeling a great deal of relief. Almost passed out at the clinic as they withdrew blood — cause I am a spaz. But it was freaking me out to have a genetics team of doctors discuss my brain, heart and worrying blood levels. I did not cope well. I was going nuts all day today as I awaited the results of my brain scan. The good news was so good to receive, but I feel like a migraine is coming on. Those of you who suffer from them will know what I mean. I hope I am wrong — but I am normally on the money. Migraine is about to hit. Oh joy. At least tomorrow is Friday.

Oh, and how about this war? UGH!

well, at least there is no brain surgery in my immediate future.

March 20, 2003. Uncategorized. 1 comment.

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