flakes
woke up with a start
tumbled toward the toilet
but then i saw the ghost of you appear there
— your pants unzipped and cowboy belt buckle hanging loose —
i ran for safety,
but found myself laid to the floor
— my arm burning with pain —
— my head dull with an ache —
i must have dashed into the wall shelf
fallen backward
laying there in a land between
dream and real
past and present
flakes left over from that horror show of ours
i stood up despite the pains on my arm and in my head
now fully awake and bruised
i walk toward the present
trying to aim for hope
ing replied:
Keep your sights set. You’ll get there, and your aim is true. You’re unbelievably strong .
April 11, 2008 at 10:01 pm. Permalink.
Java replied:
What ing said. To have come this far proves you have the strength. Even if sometimes you can’t feel it.
(((((((Matty)))))))
April 11, 2008 at 10:20 pm. Permalink.
brooke replied:
Wow, beautiful and heartbreaking. I’m thinking of you!
April 13, 2008 at 5:22 am. Permalink.
hot-lunch replied:
*hugS*
April 13, 2008 at 8:19 am. Permalink.
The sagittarian replied:
I think you should take Bagel for another stroll along the beach. Years ago my friend and I used to do the beach walk thing, hurling stones and the odd obsenities into the water was very theraputic!
April 13, 2008 at 8:14 pm. Permalink.
Pants replied:
You can do it Matty!
April 13, 2008 at 9:54 pm. Permalink.
matty03 replied:
Hey Kids! Thank you. I am strong and will get through this. Real tough sometimes, tho. But, no one ever said life was easy — just have to keep pushing through it. And, I will.
April 14, 2008 at 9:00 am. Permalink.
Pants replied:
How are things in California? I wore flip flops today…big mistake! It feels like it’s 40 degrees in my office. Brrrr!
April 22, 2008 at 11:50 am. Permalink.
christian replied:
the last time i saw blondie they surprised us all by doing a chunk of deep album cuts at the end of the set, including “accidents never happen”. AMAZING!
eat to the beat is a totally overlooked album. “the hardest part” is an amazing track too.
April 29, 2008 at 7:08 pm. Permalink.